Hi, Alexander. Though we have likely never met I have been reading your comments for many years. I am sad that you are in this predicament. Certainly, we have all been affected by this horrible disorder, though, obviously, right now you are the one at the forefront of it right now.
I hope you are receiving good medical care. The fact of the matter is they do what they can. Their knowledge is limited but I have been told that more people are CURED at Princess Margaret, out cancer hospital, than are cured (of other diseases) in the other hospitals of Toronto. Keep a positive attitude, at least as much as you can. Be around people you care about and who care about you.
There are many books on cancer. You don't have to read this one. The title is enough. Cancer is a word, not a sentence. Maybe I should end on that note.